It occurred to me this morning while I was in the shower that tomorrow is liberation day, my annual personal holiday celebrating the day I quit my job at Providian Financial and released myself from the clutches of corporate phone answering horror and eventually began my life as a pizza man.. that's neither here nor there, the fact is that day by quitting that job I changed the course of my life and that's important. So since I was thinking about that I decided to come back on here and read some of the first entries of my diary here, which started just a couple days after I quit my job, while I was in Vegas with Carl for his wedding. Reading about it I felt like I was back in that time again, I remember the details. It's weird. It made me really miss my friendship with Carl and Anna. The time when they dumped my ass was just a fucked up time in my life. I might not have been the friend they needed and I understand that, but it still seems drastic to totally end a friendship over it. At that time I was getting ready to move to Portland and was totally fucking confused and stressed out about everything, and to top it off Jenn and I was in the middle of not knowing if we were breaking up or not and I was spending all my time trying to get that back together or face the possibility of not only losing the girl I was in love with but also moving to Portland completely alone. It was a time where I felt like I was a crumbling shell of a human and to top it off two of my closest friends decided they didn't want to be friends with me anymore. Girlfriend breaking up with me, friends breaking up with me, selling my car and quitting my job and getting rid of most of my furniture so I could move to a city where I knew only one person and had no idea what the hell I was going to do. It was a fucked up time.

I seem to have lost my train of thought. Speaking of anniversaries, the 21st is pretty much the anniversary of me starting my diary, it'll be three years this sunday. It's also the anniversary of Jenn and I breaking up a year ago, when I didn't tell any of my family or friends about it. But hey, we're together now, and we're nothing like we used to be. Every day I'm so happy that we're together and our relationship is just good and normal and not chaotic at all. It's good to be done with all those bad times. Who knew that moving in together would make all the difference.

Well, I think I'm going to go to the store and stuff. Hey, it's cold enough that I'm wearing long pants today. Autumn just showed up out of nowhere this year.