Do you still care? Hey there, it's been a while, hasn't it? Well, you know, I've kind of had this thing going on. See, I've been writing in another diary for a while now. Sometimes I write in that one, sometimes I write in this one. I have noticed that it's hard to maintain two diaries because I never know which one to write in, and the history of my life or whatever starts to get a little split up and scattered all over the place. There have even been times where I've thought of writing something, but didn't know which one to write in, and for some reason didn't end up writing at all. And that's no good! So what I've finally decided is that I'm going to move my other diary offline into MacJournal, I'm going to write full on entries about whatever the hell I want in that because no one will be reading it, and then I'm going to copy and paste the "mrsensitive approved!" parts into this diary for you, if there is still a you, to read. I know, what a process. And I'm not sure if I'll like it. It's nice to feel like I can write whatever I want without anyone reading it or without feelings getting hurt or shocking secrets being revealed or anything like that, but there's also something really nice about knowing that people are reading the poop that spills out of my brain. I like to share, what can I say. I'm a people person. Something like that. Actually I was considering maybe starting a little notify list and mailing out the full on entries to it, but I'd have to really be able to pick and choose who was on it. I'm not a people person, I'm a control freak! I think it would have to be people who have been reading my shit for a while, people who's diaries I have read maybe, and definitely no one that I actually know. Strange little fella, I am. Would anyone even be interested in that? If so, drop me an email or something. Anyway, I'll update you on that as the ideas swirl around in my head and become something other than goofy thoughts.

Holy motherfuck, is the sun coming up? Where oh where did the night go? Where does it ever go. Right out my bunghole, that's where. Actually I was productive tonight. I came home from work, didn't turn on the tv but instead turned on Miles Davis, and painted like a good little bitch. And the result? A really fucking good painting, if you ask me. Speaking of painting, here's the art plan I believe. I found out the first thursday street gallery only runs through October because then it rains and is shitty and depressing for months on end. Even if I could get a decent amount of work done by October, I don't think I'd want to show once and then just have to lay dormant all winter waiting for the next one. I think what I've decided I'm going to do is spend the winter months painting hard and getting a really strong body of work together. I'd also like to take care of incidental things that would help me out, such as getting a new website up, making business cards, postcards, putting together a portfolio, all of that kind of stuff. Plus I'd like to hopefully try to get a 35mm camera and some lighting shit so I can start taking good slides of my work every time I complete a piece. I have a friend at work that would take slides for me, but I'd really rather do it myself (as with all things) because that way I could be sure to get slides of every piece I complete and keep good records and a good catalogue of all my work. If I'm serious about being an artist, and sometimes I actually feel like I am, I want to do this shit right and not just paint a bunch of shit and sell it off and have the chance of getting fucked over sometime down the road with some copyright haggle because I was too stupid to keep a record of my work or something. Maybe an imaginary situation I invented, but it is a possibility and I'm going to look out for myself. Plus if I'm doing quality work, I should have records of everything so the portfolio can continue to grow. I should have many more paintings done by now, but that's the way it goes. In the last month or so I have completed four paintings, 75% of which are good. I've got some more interesting ideas and things I'd like to explore, but I'm going to need some more supplies. I'm running low on primer, masonite and a couple colors of paint, plus I'd like to try fucking around with plaster a little bit. We'll see what I come up with. My priority right now as far as spending money goes, though, is in buying a futon. As soon as the rent is paid, if I've got $100 or so leftover or as soon as I do I'm driving my ass down to the old Walmart and picking up one of their cheap uncomfortable futons and a big hunk of foam padding to put under the matress to make it almost comfortable, because in my pad all I've got is the computer chair and this horridly uncomfortable silver thing from Ikea which has now become my painting chair and works well in that role. Then once I've got the futon, I can just lay around and be all like, "Fuck painting! I'm 'unna watch the teevee!"